Oh Forgiveness, Why are you so Fickle?

Now, this is truly rather strange. Rarely do I write about the same thing twice in a row, but I seem to be learning an awful lot about forgiveness lately.

I can only remember two other times in my life when I have ever found forgiveness this difficult. I must admit, it's rather strange. I am really upset with someone, but they have not even hurt me personally, but rather people I care dearly about. It's strange to me that this upsets me more than anything else.

This person has been an example of Christianity to me for sometime. They acted in a way that was not very reflective of Christ in response to several situations. I know the Christian thing to do is to forgive this person, but it's so darn difficult. It's especially difficult when this person still has not righted their wrongs, or sought forgiveness from these people they have hurt.

God has been speaking to me a lot about forgiveness this week. He has really been showing me what he says in his word...

Jesus sacrificed himself for our sins, therefore we are forgiven...

"This is my blood of the covenant, which is poured out for many for the forgiveness of sins."
-Matthew 26:28

We have power in forgiveness...

"But with you there is forgiveness; therefore you are feared."
-Psalm 130:4

I cannot forgive out of my own power, but there is someone who can.

Thank goodness I have a God who is Mighty to Save....
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one year later: friendship renewed

oh Jesus, just when I think I can't, just when I feel like giving up and cashing out, you find me.

thank you for forgiveness and the forgiveness of others.

thank you that you give me friendships that can survive incredible diversity.

Oh my dear Jesus, you are so, so, so worth it.